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wow. where to begin.
ill start with saying this: 2007 has been one of the most amazing years of my life. from starting the year off being in love to ending it in israel with a new love in mind. I have been through so much in these past 365 days and i cant even try to explain all of the emoitions i have felt. I have met so many amazing people this year that i know have impacted my life in so many different amazing ways, good or bad i know i have come out of this year a more positive person. I have learned so much about my self but at the very same time i still dont know who i am. I think that going away to college has made me such a better person, im not as moody and i appreciate my family a lot more. I cant belive i started 2008 in israel. I got to celebrate it a day before all of you. while you were all having hte times of your life i was in 2008 in a bus on my way to the western wall. Israel was amazing. Its my calling. I have never felt so welcomed at one place in my entire life. I know buffalo isnt for me anymore, not even being home makes me happy anymore. I keep looking at pictures and watching videos. I have been on facebook 3 days straight, i havent really left my room nor have i left my house once. I feel like its not even worth it to see anyone or talk to anyone anymore becuase explaining my trip to people is just pointless. i want people to feel what i felt and its impossible. Not only did i stay the 10 days with the big group but a few of us were lucky enough to stay a few extra days. We were invited to stay at our israeli friends houses. I met a guy. an israeli guy who is honestly one of the mose amazing people i have ever met in my life. He has so much pride for his country, so much love for everythign there. Honestly i didnt realize how close you can get to people within 10 days. I have made life long friends. The isralis i met there have done so much more for me than anyone could ever do for me in a lifetime. Their familsys welcomed us to their homes, their jobs, they let us invade hteir lives for a week and i could not be anymore greatful. I have been so depressed since ive been home and i hate it. I feel so unwelcomed in my own home that i cant stand to be here. im going to try and do everything in my power to move to israel by may, if that isnt possible then im gonna die. Lindsay and I both are going soooo sianora. this whole experience was life changing. im so glad i spent my new years with those amazing 40 something people. i wouldnt have changed that for the world.
seriously anyone whos jewish and under the age of 25 DO BIRTHRIGHT. itll change your life. if you need info let me know.
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[25 Dec 2007|02:29am] |
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not trying to be a negitive nancy, but im on academic probation, and i fucked up a really good thing with a someone, AND i cant stand to be around someone who i love so much.
i swear i thought i was having the best vacation ever until three days ago.
OH but im going to israel in two days.
and i cant stand people telling me how to act.........deal with it. I HAVE CHANGED.
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[15 Nov 2007|09:19am] |
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i had a mini break down the other day..
joe was here to visit and it made me realize a bunch of things.
for a minute i wanted to leave bufflefuck.
then i made my schedual for next semester and i love it, so i decided to stay.
i have no clue what my major is, its either fashion or photo but no one in advisement knows either.
basically im making it fashion, because i suck at life.
i never take pictures anymore and it makes me really sad.
today my math teacher pissed me off, but what are ya gonna do?
i never go to my writing class and i have a research paper due sometime next week.
i sprayed fabreeze in my face before, BY ACCIDENT.
in six days ill be home, i cannot wait.
not to mention thanksgiving is my number one holiday!
israel with the numb skull on decemeber 27th...its gonna be insane.
honestly, they should not let me and lin go to another country by ourselves....
1 word to describe: MAYHEM.
it will be life changing for sure.
im having roomate troubles....or wait...i dont even have a roomate.
redGODDAMNdiculous.
i am starting to appreciate everything in life....and it feels GUREAT.
i havent smoked ganj in awhile..and i like it that way.
life is pretty sweet, and i cannot wait for next semester to begin.
OH did i mention i might move to cali within the next two years.....................
well i might.
basically......i really cant complain anymore.
peace & love.
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[22 Oct 2007|10:21am] |
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basically the only good things about school at the moment are:
hummus.
coffee.
thursday through saturday.
long island bitties.
should i be flavor flave or bob marley for holloween?
other than those little thingss....
iiiii ammm soo tired & i wanttt it to be colder.
ITS NOT COLD IN BUFFLEFUCKKKK.
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[14 Jun 2007|06:32pm] |
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i hope this summer is life changing.
ill make the best of it.
im kind of getting antsy.
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